OKAY SO: big improvements ive been nonstop listening to the life of a showgirl and i really like it now!!! i take back everythingnegative i said. ignore my last diary entry because i no longer feel that way. anyways yestday was okay i didnt too much. neither did i today eitherbecause im not feeling well (?) like i have a headache and i feel so nauseous its okay because i got the life of a showgirl with me. OHH ALSO all my cds and the vinyl i ordered before got delivered to my moms house soim excited for when they arrive here.. HEHE i love this album sm. i went to the movie with one of my irls who wasnt the biggest taylor fan, i dont have any swiftie friends guys i need some, and i rlly enjoyed it i think its funny that they used the clean versions and her explanation for wood was hilarious.. like okay nothing else ! just superstitions !

okayso yesterday was fun!! i went to the pop up thing and i waited for like 3 hours but it was fun, im glad i went. and i listened to the album at midnight and i have a few things to say: i do like some of them. i really love elizabeth taylor and opalite. i also like honey. the rest of them just need to grow on me i think, this is how i feel when any new album releases i need time to really understand it. i dont like eldest daughter though. i am honestly kind of dissapointed with it but again i think it just needs time to really grow on me. because for vigilante shit i thought the same thing but now i really do like it. also being a taylor and charli fan is like hearing my parents fighting. same with the last album because i love the 1975. ANywAYS final thoughts after a few listens: 7/10 give me a few months and it'll be a 10/10

hey guys big update i added music anf chnaged the bg a bit i knew i would ANYWAYS today was nice. i donthave school tomorriw and i get to hear tloasg tmr... well technivally friday but 12am IDGAF ANWYAS IM SO EXCITED and i got taco bell and life is nice guys its great. ok byt have a niceday i love u

Ok so big update: i changed the background to this page like the journal i think its looking much better and i put room for stamps < 3 yay i love it sm. one thing i do want to change is the status cafe thing. i think it looks awkward. i stil want to keep but it but i need to change it somehow. theres a bunch of empty space and it just looks kinda icky.

anyways i might see twice.. IDK YET U GUYs also the taylor swift spotify thing iM GONNA TRY AND GO TO SOON I WANT TO GO SO BAD BUT IDK HOW CROWDED IT WILL BE IM GONNA THROW UP.ill be ok im trying to avoid spoilers on it before i go iM SO EXCITED WDYM WERE GONNA HAVE 12 NEW TAYLOR SONGS BY THE END OF THE WEEK i still havent even processedit yet im so happy i luv taylor

hEY GUYS BIGGG UPDATE: So yk how i wasa ranting about the signed cds......... I GOT ONE YAYYY i got the first one. i srsly thought there would be no more restocks because the timer like Ended so i assumed that but I WAS WRONG im actually so happy. anyways im eating strawberries and kiwis and yum ok bye. thats literally all i wanted to say

hey yeall im really excited for taylor swift... she relaesed signed cds But she put a coutndown for it and i wasnt able to get one cuz resellers suck Anyways///... Today i went and saw the long walk which i liked i think the two main guys are gay for eachother. not a lot going on at the moment, i just wish taylor didnt do a countdown and taylor nation tweeting every hour abt it when you already have a problem with resllers. and not having. aa captcha until the last restock is crazy. if i was in that movie i. think id last like 10 hours max and then im done. Even less actually. I love walking but i need a break guys i cant do it. ihope u can find it in your hearts to forgive me. ANYWAYS SHOWGIRL IN A FEW DAYS IM SO FUCKING EXCITED. ive been thinking about getting a therapist but im unsure of how to do that

let me go on a little rant real quick because i need to get this out, i dont like how there is a bmi requirement for anorexia?? that is so weird to me.. like i know there is "atypical anorexia" but do we rlly need a whole another diagnosis becuase of weight i think THAT SI SOOOOO DUMBBB any weight can be anorexic!! u can have anorexia no matter ur weight !!!! like "Severity is based on body mass index (BMI) derived from World Health Organization categories for thinness in adults; corresponding percentiles should be used for children and adolescents: Mild: BMI greater than or equal to 17 kg/m2, Moderate: BMI 16–16.99 kg/m2, Severe: BMI 15–15.99 kg/m2, Extreme: BMI less than 15 kg/m2." whoever made that i hate you bythr way///... Like ok im not severe enought despite having this disorder for years. i would argue that i am doing even WORSE than i am right now at a normal weight, not even under "mild" or even considered anorexic, than i was at my lowest weight which would fall under their definition of "severe" even though my mental state is worse. Because of my weight it was worse then than now? Makes no sense. Ok i hate you. Bye have a good day

Hey diary2.html how are u guys doing ? taylor swift announced a movie im honestly not sure what it is, but i got tickets and me and one of my friends are going im so excited yallll.. i need to get smth to wear that's orange i dont own anything orange because it's lowkey ugly but anyways moving on... Ihave felt rlly anxious recently for like no reason i dont know GUYS this happens all the time i'll be fine. One thingi've recently been interested in is this kpop group called unis they r so cute. anyways Bye

Ok the past few days i have been super sick like my throat was killing me and i was super tired and i was throwing up but then i felt a bit better. i went to the doctor and they gave me some medicine to help and also wrote a note for the class ivebeen missing .. anyways i went into my english today and we are doing this project on something and we have to be in pairs, but because i wasnt there i was put in. a group of three and its a bunch of men WHICH im sure will be fine, i just dont like presentations because i suck at talking and i am a very anxious person, and im not much of a fan of english anyways i never have been. i used to be super into writing when i was like 11-13 because of warrior cats, its all id write about and during class too id write warriors fanfics , they were bad but it was fun. but now i just dont enjoy writing that much because i find it difficult to put how im feeling into words. even if thats what im doing right now. Ok bye.

OK SO my arm still kinda hurts anyways i got spider bites 2day and ya it hurt a lot less than my septum,,.. so dat was good but ir like hurts to eat guys its so uncomfy cuz i keep accidentally biting down onto the bars and YEOWWWCHHHH anyways as soon as i can im gonna switch em out for rings cuz i the bars make me sew eye sai dal... ok bai have a nice day u guys. Izze out.,...

guys my arm really hurts i was sleeping all day bescause i was tired and i forced myself to go out and walk for like an hour so at least thats good. im trying to pick up osu again but i haven t played in months and im on a new laptop so i gotta get used to it ALSO my arm hurts.. thats my excuse for being bad at the game. anywasys rhats all i gotta say for today i did NOTHIINNGGGG ok bai.

hi not much happened today i had my painting class which was okay ONE OF MY CHARMS ON MY BRACELT CAME OFF IM SO SAD i have to put it back on. it was a scissor.. what the hell... anyways after that i went to the library and worked on a few things and theni went grocery shopping for fruit, yogurt because i havent had much of that in weeks and i used to live off of just yogurt

anyways one thing im really happy is how like creative i am now (?) before i would be so lazy and would not make anything. edits, art, ect.. and now i have so much motivation for it. im so happy that its all coming back to me cuz ive missed her. i miss when i would be excited to make things and now i am!!! yay!

i want to learn touch designer because it seems really interesting but confusing, but once i understand it then i will understand it ya..... and also i thought ae was complicated at first and now it doesnt seem like that at all.

thats all ive got to say now, have a great day luv u

helloo i am praying that this works because i havent done anything on here for so long SORRY. i wasnt busy, i actually was doing less than i am now but i am just lazy. i dont know why i decided to pick this up again, i guess i just need something more to do (?) or maybe i just likeit and want to work on it again! yayy!!! anyways i saw ethel cain yesterday with one of my friends (i luv her) and it was great omg... although people around us were all sitting, andnot singing, which i understand because some of her songs are kind of "slow" or just instrumentals, but i felt werid even whispering the lyrics to myself LMAO.. anyways i got back kind of late and i had to wake up early so im kind of dead right now.

i hope u like the journal thing ive made i didnt know what to add so i just added a bunch of pictures of things i like. i did something similar with the "about" section too. i really enjoy making this stuff for myself and this website i miss it so im happy to be doing it again. i hope i can get better at html / css because right now... not so much

on a completely unrelated note, my life has actually gotten sm better in these past few weeks, it was alright beforeand then it got kind of worse again (which is completely my fault for letting it get that way, i know that) but now we are in a good phase and im so happy. i think not isolating myself in my room for days is making me feel better. which isnt surprising.

ok thats all i have to say for today, have a good day love u bai